It's all about progress.

And so, I have finished the heats and today the call backs for the first round of Busta Rhyme. (type in Busta Rhyme Newham to find us on You Tube). I have so thoroughly enjoyed meeting all the kids that have come to show us their talent throughout Newham. I'm trying desperately not to sound like a press release or funding document here. But my pleasure is complete and honest. I'm so impressed with them all. From those who have presented us with a fantastic performance to those who have just taken that first step of performing in front of an audience. 

I'm finding it difficult this evening to concentrate on my personal dream of living in France for some time because I have made some invaluable links over the past few weeks. Links with people who are honest and clear in their wish to improve the lives of people in east London. With no alteria motive other than to do good. I just don't understand what I feel right now. I'm determined to go to France and do something for myself. But I'm starting to think that once I'm back from France I will return to Newham in whatever capacity people will have me, in order to carry on the work that I have started. Perhaps my conscience gets in the way of me doing what I think I should do for myself...what that is I just don't know. 

Have you ever noticed that conscience has the word 'science' in. In fact if you analyse the way that word is made up it is: con, meaning 'with' and 'science' meaning thought. With thought. Our conscience, is our thought. But there are thoughts that each human being have that they would not assign to their 'conscience'. 

Arg, I've drunk too much wine and I'm getting too philosophical and should stop now. Tomorrow I may think differently. I just don't know.